Unit 7

I sat and tried this meditation last week and I couldn’t focus properly. When asked to focus on someone wise who has passed my first thought was of Phyllis. Phyllis was a client of mine; I had been doing her manicures every two weeks for the past 13 years. She passed in July at the age of 85, I still cry when I think of her, she was a mentor to me, she was resilient, she was outrageously intelligent, she lived life to the fullest and didn’t take any BS from anyone, you never asked her opinion if you really didn’t want to hear the truth, but most of all she was full of love. I think of her almost every day and I miss her terribly. So, I try again knowing what emotions may come to surface. It wasn’t any easier on the second try but I knew what to expect as far as my emotions so I was able to control them a little bit more. It was nice to focus on Phyllis and to see her as if she was here with me and just know that through this meditation I could seek her out somehow, and yes I can realize now that all I strive to be more like her I am. "One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself" this is a great quote and I completely believe it to be true. How can one preach/ suggest/ teach something they themselves don’t practice or believe in? In becoming part of the nutrition field I need to be able to say to my clients this is how you should eat and also know that I can back up my suggestions because I also follow the same guidelines. I have been trying very hard recently to incorporate psychological and spiritual growth into my life. I feel more at peace with myself and definitely less reactive when something upsets me, of course we all have minor setbacks at times. This is when I realize I need to refocus my energy into what is positive for my own personal growth.