High school again???

grrr.... I feel like I'm in high school again... OK well .. maybe that'san exageration. I feel like I am behind in my classes and I need to spend more time on both of them, but configuring the time is difficult. The other class I am taking I am not happy with myself, my grade seems to be dropping every week and with my last semester being so good I am starting to feel like whatever I do isn't good enough. one week i posted enoug responses but didn't log in enoug so I got points taken off for that, last week after the fact she tells me I was to argue a point in the discussin and not just tell my opinion so I lost points on discussion for that. Not to mention that every assignment I turn in has wrong answers. So when I say I feel like I'min high school again I mean that I have all these great feelings about the work I do and then it gets slapped down by the grades. I know I need to get over my pity party and just work harder, BUT.... and here comes the pity part.... I am stressed over school, over life, and over stupid little stuff. I filed for divorce from my husband at the begininng of the month and I still have to have him served with the papers, he still lives in the house with me and our kids, I have to find another octor for myself to look into something for my personal self, my 3 yr od son needs to have minor surgery but it requires that he be under full anestesia and the only hospital to have a pediatric anestesiologist doesn't take my insurance, so I can hope they will make an exception or change my hmo so he can have the surgery, my very best friend in the world's mother is about to die so may have to jet off to North Carolina at the drop of a hat because I can't imagine not being there for her when she goes. So tomorrow after work I am packing bags for just in case like a pregant woman for al 4 of us. OK there's more but my pity party is over. After all tis I wish there was more i could do for my friend, I wish I could be there with her when she has to drive 5 hours each way to be at her moms side only to see her deteriorate, and watch as she becomes more delusional. sigh sigh sigh...ok I am done now! till the next blog!!! oh yeah ! we had a lot of snow so i missed 2 days of work ..no pay.... doesn't seem to bother me when I have my mind on all the other stuff :) can't wait to be barefooot!!!
ps...i can't go back and correct my spelling mistakes because when I try to insert a letter to correct a word it deletes the next letter... so I don't know how to change that ... so I a sorry for the spelling errors... it bothers me

Lets try this again

So here I go again tired because I am about to go to bed, but I am in a better frame of mind than this morning. I am enjoying being an online student, it definitely gives me the flexibility and freedom to work at my pace. When I tell people I am back in school online they are so fascinated by it and start asking me all sorts of questions about it. I was extremely nervous at first, it has been 18 years since I was in a school setting but I am getting the hang of it. I do tend to get overwhelmed and think I can do this all, and thats when I know I need to take a deep breath and relax and focus myself on knowing what needs to get done. When I get overwhelmed it is usually due to too much info too fast and when I relax and break down each class in a calmer mind I realize it's not too bad. My favorite is the to do lists the Professor post because then I really see what needs to be done in a different view.
I am not too hip on the anonimity of the classroom setting, I love to socialize and I do miss the meeting new people and discussing class, life, stuff. I do have some of my old classmates from last semester as my friends on facebook and I like that because at least that is a little bit of outside socialization to a point!

Sunday