grrr.... I feel like I'm in high school again... OK well .. maybe that'san exageration. I feel like I am behind in my classes and I need to spend more time on both of them, but configuring the time is difficult. The other class I am taking I am not happy with myself, my grade seems to be dropping every week and with my last semester being so good I am starting to feel like whatever I do isn't good enough. one week i posted enoug responses but didn't log in enoug so I got points taken off for that, last week after the fact she tells me I was to argue a point in the discussin and not just tell my opinion so I lost points on discussion for that. Not to mention that every assignment I turn in has wrong answers. So when I say I feel like I'min high school again I mean that I have all these great feelings about the work I do and then it gets slapped down by the grades. I know I need to get over my pity party and just work harder, BUT.... and here comes the pity part.... I am stressed over school, over life, and over stupid little stuff. I filed for divorce from my husband at the begininng of the month and I still have to have him served with the papers, he still lives in the house with me and our kids, I have to find another octor for myself to look into something for my personal self, my 3 yr od son needs to have minor surgery but it requires that he be under full anestesia and the only hospital to have a pediatric anestesiologist doesn't take my insurance, so I can hope they will make an exception or change my hmo so he can have the surgery, my very best friend in the world's mother is about to die so may have to jet off to North Carolina at the drop of a hat because I can't imagine not being there for her when she goes. So tomorrow after work I am packing bags for just in case like a pregant woman for al 4 of us. OK there's more but my pity party is over. After all tis I wish there was more i could do for my friend, I wish I could be there with her when she has to drive 5 hours each way to be at her moms side only to see her deteriorate, and watch as she becomes more delusional. sigh sigh sigh...ok I am done now! till the next blog!!! oh yeah ! we had a lot of snow so i missed 2 days of work ..no pay.... doesn't seem to bother me when I have my mind on all the other stuff :) can't wait to be barefooot!!!
ps...i can't go back and correct my spelling mistakes because when I try to insert a letter to correct a word it deletes the next letter... so I don't know how to change that ... so I a sorry for the spelling errors... it bothers me
OMG! Jen you sounded like me when I have my son here and his girlfriend and her two babies on the weekends! try to do studiing and homework with screaming and fighting and my son and here with the tv up too loud playing video games all day! on top of that, I went from part time work to full time because my dumb boss fell on the ice and left us for about three months. Me and the assistant was the only one working the two days sales and snow scares! If you worked in or ever been in the store with every one freaking out that they are going to get snowed in, it is just crazy! oh but things get better! they have to. my boss came back this week, the kids moved out, and took their mess with them and I can get caught up on my work. I don't understand how can you not log in enough to class? I try to check the boards every day, somedays you just got to take a break! one day I didn't even look at the computer! I kinda had a problem too. my last class, she dinged me on in a discussion because I used the word then instead of than! I don't know what the big deal was cause it wasn't even a english class! it was math. But anyway, it has all got to get better, take a deep breath, blow out all the bad, and think about being on the beach somewhere and it will all come together! see you in class
ReplyDeleteI know what your saying and all. So for myself i just take one day at a time and do the best that I can and live with what I get and just keep on trying to do the best that I can is all. I know that you will do fine. So dont beat yourself up to bad. See you in class.
ReplyDeleteWhoa...I am so with you on the school work. I get the same thing with my other class. I haven't done anything differently this term that I did in the previous ones. He docs me on the discussion 4/100th of a point and a 1/2 on the seminar every time. Yet, he says I'm doing great. I don't get it. Things that make you go Hmmmm...Maybe he's the type that doesn't give full credit because there's always room for improvement. Who knows. I'll just do what I can do and hope it's good enough. I hate for my GPA to go down because of it though. It is an Honors course. Blah..
ReplyDeleteEveryone is entitled to a pity party every now and then. I've had a few myself. We are all human. If you need anything, or need someone to talk to, just holler. I'm a good listener and I've been through quite a lot myself. It doesn't seem to end. Be strong and take care of yourself. Know that you have people around that care.
thanks all! :)
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